This sucks

For once I have something to tell you all. I was in an accident tonight. Yeah, you heard me right. My poor car has a big ol scratch mark and dent in her drivers side. Warren and I were comming home from dinner when this younge girl pulled out of the Sonic parking lot. Not paying attention she pulled into the far right hand line where we were driving and hit on Warren's side. Scared the piss out of me, almost litterally. I had to pee so bad. SO we pull over and the girl starts to cry. " Oh, my Mom and Dad are going to kill me. " Blah blah blah! God damn cock sucking piece of shit. My car is damaged. We told her we had to call the cops to file a report, she didn't want to but we did. The cop gets there takes the report and sends us on our way. The damn drivers side door won't hardly open now and both doors on that side are going to have to be replaced. It is going to cost a good 3 grand to have it fixed. I hope to hell the girl has insurance. They do things weird here you don't take their info the cop does and three days later they send you something of the report to turn into the insurance company. When the damn little bitch hit my car I hit the back of the seat pretty hard and it kinda hurt at first but I didn't think it was anything. Now my neck and right arm are hurting like a bitch and I think I might have pinched something. I told Warren when they hit us my neck kinda hurt but I thought that it was just cause I hit the seat, now I come to find out I should have told the cop and they should have called an ambulence to look at me. I guess if it doesn't get any better by tomorrow night I will make an appointment for Tuesday. There went any spare money I had. Considering I don't have insurance and to go to the emergency will cost a good 100.00 or more. Yippie can't wait to be dirt poor again with no damn money. Well one thing is good this pay check was a little more then normal it went to our splurge for the month, FOOD! Yeah I know selfish me wanting to eat and all. Anyways, that was my interesting night. I am going to go and take some tylenol. I have the phone company tio argue with and the damn credit card place. You know the fun stuff of being an adult. I WANT TO MOVE TO COLORADO ALREADY, GOD DAMN PIECE OF SHIT. I GUESS I BETTER START LOOKING FOR A JOB IN GREELEY.Ok well night night all. Gomer or Mom whomever gets this first, call me when you can. I work from 3 till close on Monday tomorrow. 9 till 2 on Tuesday and Wednsday. Off on Thursday. Then 2 till close on Friday and 1 till close on Saturday. Love you guys bunches.
MUAH!! <3

I know it has been forever. I just never ever seem to have anything to say anymore. I know my life is boring and what can I say thats just me.

I talked to Gomer tonight and for some reason talking to her always makes me feel so much better. Then I get online and I just got done reading her blog, for some reason reading hers makes me feel somewhat better. It is like I am not the only one in the world that has problems. I know that she has a lot to deal with here lately and that she is dealing with it alone. Kinda like what I am going through. I never ever realized how much I depended on her when I lived at home. She was like my out let to everything that was going wrong and to everything that was going right. She is my walking diary. As crazy as it sounds it is true. I think that there is not one day in my life that she doesn't have some kinda memory of. I think I have the same for her. I can remember almost every convo we have ever shared. Most of our convos took place on the edge of my bed or in her room. I guess I took a lot of things for granted when I lived at home.

Here lately more and more I am realizing what makes me in happy in life and what things I can do without. I know that when I am home I am happy. But when I am here I am sad. I know that when I am just in Greeley I am happy. Being here I have grown up a lot and I have realized a lot about myself. I have had come face to face with myself on a daily basis and sometimes I don't always like what I see. I working hard at trying to change that. am not just talking about the outside either. I am talking about the inside. I realized how shallow I can be and how much of a push over I can be. I know that since moving here I have become a stronger person and come to realize who my real friends are.

I know that this is more then likely no sence and is just rambling but these are things that I have needed to get off my chest. Things that I have been thinking about for a while and just haven't had the heart to say. Here the last week or so lots has been going on with my life and it has been really hard for me to deal with. I have had money problems, relationship problems and life problems all in one. I have had a lot on my plate and have found it really hard to swallow it all. I have been doubting getting married and whether or not what I have found if true love. I have come to the conclusion that once I move back to Greeley things will be much better. I need to get out of this damn town and go back to my smelly cow town. As crazy as it sounds I miss the smell. I miss the way it smells when it is warm outside, like a combination or wild flowers and corn plants. I know that sounds just awful but it is the smell of home. Or the way my Mom smells when she puts on too much perfume. Or how Grampa smells of old spice and tabacco. Stupid things like that I miss so much. Or even going into Lisa's room first thing in the morning and jumping on her bed to make her wake up. Or just going into her room and asking her whats shes doing. Even though I know ten times out of ten it's nothing. Just bugging her was always fun. I know now I am just rambling and I better be getting to bed. MUAH!!! <3

I have so much I should be doing right now aside from blogging. I talked to Mom and Lisa today, I can't wait to see them. I have to pack everything and start getting the house cleaned up. While we are away in Colorado we are getting new furniture moved in and a new heater installed. We are going to come home to a brand new house pretty much. I am want so badly to be home right now. I have been trying to convince Warren all day to leave a day early but he won't let me. He is being a bad boyfriend and making me go to work on Monday. :o( Oh well I guess it will be soon enough that I will be home. YIPPIE!!! I am so way excited. I can't say it enough. Ok off to do some house work. MUAH! <3

Lets see 2 days and I will be back in good ol' smelly cow town Greeley Colorado. I am so excited I think that I might pee a little. Huh Lisa? But yeah. I went to work today and it was boring as all get out. I think I did nothing for 6 out of the 7 hours I was there. I need to find a new job. I need more money. I want to move back to Greeley. But yeah. Anways, I have been getting ready to go and have kinda started packing. I know everything I have to take and let me tell you it is a lot of presents. Most of which are for Gomer. But she is the only sister I have so of course her ass is going to be spoiled rotten. I guess it is only fair since Warren spoils the hell out of me. Even though sometimes I don't deserve it. I know that once we get back from vacation we are going to exchange gifts with one another. He needs a new gun holster for work I want a diamond tennis bracelet. But we have to wait until we get back. I want to just drop everything and drive to Colorado right now. But Warren has to drive with me. My sence of direction sucks ass. Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you. He is working killer hours this weekend and I am hating it. I have to sleep alone. :o( But anyways, I must go now and get some sleep. I have to get up when Warren gets home from work. Then he gets to sleep all day and do it all over again. Ok night night all. MUAH! <3

OK 6 days and I will be home. Lets just hope that the weather stays nice for my loverly drive. I can't wait, I am like a little kid the night before the first day of school. I can't sleep at night and when I fall asleep I wake up every hour to see what time it is. Yes I know I am a huge GOMER!! Like someone I know. Ok well not much else to talk about. Night night all. See why I never blog my life is boring. MUAH! <3

I am getting so excited about going home for Christmas you have no idea. Vi is finally talking to us which is a good thing, I think.

I just got my Christmas tree up but all I got on are the lights. And wouldn't you know it. I get all the damn lights up and one set blinks. Well crap. I am way to tired and what not to take them all down to find the one darn bulb that blinks. I guess it gives me something to do tomorrow. Lets see other things on my list of things to do tomorrow..

Clean Kitchen
Clean Bathroom
Put bulbs on tree
Return some things I bought that aren't going to work
Get some material to make Charlie a blanket
Buy some Sharpies
Clean living room up from all the wrapping I did today

Lets see what else happened to me today. I talked to Mom, Gramma and Mike on the phone today. I haven't talked to Mike in I don't know how long. As I was getting out of the shower today he called. At first I didn't know who it was, then I realized. I was so suprised. It turns out that he gets to Colorado for Christmas the same time I leave. Well shit. If I could only stay one more week. I would love to see him again. I think it has been a good 2 years since I seen him last. Talk about a long time. Well for me anyways. It is so damn hot in my apartment right now. We had the heater turned on and shit is it hot. The damn thing I think is so darn old that the knob thing doesn't even work. I guess that is what I get for moving into an old apartment.

I would give anything to be able to move back to Colorado. I want to be able to go over to my Gramma's whenever I want. And be able to call my Mom whenever I want. Kinda like how it is now but better. Ok well I think I am heading off to bed. Night Night all. MUAH! <3